We do!!! I have been blown away this week in seeing God work in so many different ways in our family's life and in our friends lives. It's beautiful to be a part of His work.
A few weeks after Brynlee was born, I became increasingly concerned over the health of our little one. Nothing too major stood out, but call it mother's instinct, or God prompting my spirit, but I felt quite strongly that Brynlee had some issues that needed attention. It was confirmed by a few others and I began to pray. I struggled in knowing how to pray. Do I pray for healing? I know God created her in the way that would bring him the most glory. I wanted to accept God's plan with open arms, even if it would not be how I had planned. I still do not know the answer on whether to pray specifically for healing. I did pray for that, but more so, I prayed for peace in my spirit and for God's will and purpose to be accomplished in Brynlee's life and in our family's life. These thoughts and emotional struggle went on for 5 weeks. I kept this mainly between me and the Lord, but shared some thoughts with Jimmy as I needed his support and encouragement. Brynlee had her 2 month appointment scheduled for Friday, March 11. On Monday, March 7, I didn't know how I could make it till Friday. Jimmy called the doctor and asked if we could get in that day. Well, needless to say, we were not able to and just had to wait. We began to pray fervently. We have a wonderful small group that we are more than blessed to be a part of and as we sat down with them Monday night, we shared (Jimmy with the guys and me with the girls) the concerns we had. I told them I was basically terrified about Friday and I didn't know how to make it through the week. My sweet friends sat down with me and began to pray over Brynlee and myself. We boldly went to the Lord and asked for peace for me, wisdom for the doctors and if needed, a complete healing for Brynlee.
And God answered. Well, he always answers. But he answered so quickly! I had an undeniable peace of mind throughout the week. Scriptures invaded my mind as doubts and lies that Satan attempted to feed me tried to enter in. Friends were sending messages to me all week. Others gave me some great advice in different techniques to try with Bryn. I came to the point early on in the week, that as difficult as it would be to have a child different than what I was used to with Jadeyn, God would be our pillar. And I would confidently accept the good and bad (human thinking) of this life with a correct view of who God is.
As the week progressed, I began to see a dramatic change in Brynlee. It was like she made a 180 turn. She began to focus on us more. Watch us. Focus on toys. Kick around. Stay awake longer. She quit spitting up. Started eating more consistently. And finally, she gave us the long awaited smile that every parent hopes to see from their baby. It came at 8 weeks and 1 day. Wednesday night. She smiled at me, then her Bop-Bop, then her dad. It was amazing. And I truly believe our family was the recipient of a modern-day miracle. I am positive that God placed his healing hands on Brynlee Kate and she was miraculously touched by our loving and gracious Father. God is so good. But not just because he chose to heal Brynlee physically. He is good no matter what enters into our lives. Help me to claim that truth and live it, Jesus.
I mentioned at the beginning of this post how I saw God work in our friends lives as well. I won't go into much detail, but not only did we see God demonstrate himself as healer, we also saw him be a comforter and protector! I have already said how much I love our small group. One of our sweet friends brother tragically died this week. I have seen our small group gather around this couple and be the arms and feet of Jesus. Our comforter. Also in our small group, one of the girls' parents house was in a direct line in a massive fire in their town. We began to pray. Her mother got out of her house safe. And their house still stands, even though their backyard was in flames.
Our God is good. He is our healer. He is our comforter. He is our protector. He is GOOD!
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